Bad Blogger

   So I know, I deserve a virtual slap on the wrist. I've been a bad blogger, or rather a non-blogger. I've been crazy busy lately, which ideally I would be blogging about. But, it's not so much interesting as just time consuming stuff. I'm busy with work and covered up in a project, which I love by the way. And I'm working towards a self-impossed deadline to launch a new website in the works, all new promotional materials, new advertising, wedding book examples, and I'm sure I'm forgetting something. And I'm a little bit embarrassed to admit it, but I've actually got a completely new, totally different, project in the works. Yes, it's ridiculous to start something new. And no, I don't have time for it. But it's just serendipitous and I need to see where it's going. Hopefully, I'll be able to say more about it soon. After Christmas most likely, but we'll see. When I actually write it all out, I can see how someone could look at my work schedule and seriously question the logic behind it. And they'd be completely justified in doing so. But, as I've said before, I thrive creatively from diversity. It's truly a cyclical process for me. While I'm researching for a design motif, I'm also finding inspiration for my new side project. And in looking for advertising possibilities for my photography, I'm seeing holes in the market and coming up with ideas for completely new products no one is offering. It's probably a good idea for most people to start a project and follow it through until it's finished. But I am not that person. I'm apparently a divergent artist, and I really do benefit from letting my creative energy bounce around a little bit. I know how amazingly blessed I am that my "work" is also my play sometimes. Yes, sure, there are times when I'd rather be doing something else than finishing the project with the soonest deadline. But there's hardly room to complain. I actually get to do what I love, and get paid for it. I don't know many people who can really say that, and I don't take it for granted. I thank God everyday for answering my prayers. I very clearly remember being told repeatedly that wanting to be a professional artist was not something people could actually do. That wanting to be able to make a living as an artist was silly and irresponsible and really just a waste of time. I do want to be very clear about something though. These discouraging "warnings" never came from my family. I am crazy blessed to come from parents and a family that firmly encouraged us to follow our hearts. They said we could do anything we wanted, and be anything we wanted to be. They didn't always understand my art, but they always, always, ALWAYS encouraged it. So, when they said I could be anything I wanted, I was fortunate to be foolish enough to believe them. It's been a rocky and twisty road, but it's mine, and I'm thankful for it. So, now I find myself doing exactly what I was told was impossible, and doing it my way and not anyone else's. It's not always the most practical or predictable way to make a living, but I love it. I really do. So, I'm busy and turning in circles and juggling deadlines, but I've got a smile on my face while I'm doing it. I'm excited and hopeful about the road I'm on and I know enough to not even try and predict what it may be in the future. When other things in my life are completely up in the air, and I don't know which way is which, I can always find a safe place in my art. This completely flighty, unpredictable, unrealistic, and impossible profession has somehow become my solid ground and one of the most stable and consistent parts of my life. So, for right now, I'm a little swallowed up in a few different projects, but I really wouldn't have it any other way. Hopefully I'll get better at balancing everything and making blogging one of the regular parts of my "routine" if it can be called that. Thanks for hanging in there with me.